Tuesday, May 29, 2012

My aching heart

Today I am writing with a heavy heart. This morning I took my almost 12 year old son to a funeral.  The funeral was for a healthy, vibrant 40 year old woman whose daughter is in my son's class.  It happened fairly suddenly and was a shock to everyone. She was a wife, a mom to 2 intelligent kids, and a para at the elementary school. Many people are struggling with this loss. It is hard to understand why people who are so young and with so much life to live pass away. I can be sure we will never understand this.  My heart is breaking for this sweet young girl who has lost her mom.

On our way home I was thinking about how short our lives here on Earth can be. Am I taking advantage of every day or am I whining & complaining about what my kids are doing? I am definitely not taking advantage of every day. I need to hug & kiss my kids more and be frustrated with them less. I need to make better use of the time I have. I also need to make sure my kids see me spending time in God's Word, deepening my relationship with Him. I want to leave a legacy like the one my Grandma left, but I have a LONG way to go to do that.  I just have so much on my mind & heart today  - but the one thing that is very clear to me is that I need to have my life right with Christ. I need to spend some time on my knees asking for forgiveness and seeking after Christ and what he has for my life.

Hug your kids an extra time or 10 today.

To any of my friends and family thinking about getting me something for my birthday, think about donating some money to my local Library. They are working on renovating the building and could definitely use any extra money! I was inspired by the young mom whose funeral we attended today, she was very involved with their library and she loved helping kids learn to love reading. I don't need any "stuff" and this gift would be something that would keep giving!

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